I never understood it when people say "I'm high on Life," or "I've got a natural High." I always thought to myself, Shut up, no one know what the hell you are talking about. Until now. Kind of. This is my favorite kind of weather. A little chilly, but not too cold or too warm. The leaves are turning and falling off the trees, and if you find yourself in a natural setting it is absolutely beautiful. So I went running and ended up going around the lake by house 3 times! I just couldn't stop! The entire time it just felt so Awesome and wonderful, the scenery, the temperature.. I can't even completely describe it. We are so Blessed! I cannot believe all of the incredibly wonderful things God has given us! He gave me this beautiful surrounding to enjoy, my daughter, my life, ah! As I ran, I just got more and more happy. I wasn't it the most pleasant mood when I left, but it quickly changed. God is so Amazing! He made our bodies so perfectly and wonderful that we don't need artificial things to make us feel good. All we have to do is go outside, run, walk, WHATEVER! It makes my body feel amazing, and gives me a "high" so to speak for the rest of my day. It makes me wonder why anyone looks for tangible highs. It is sad, and they don't know what they are missing out on. Why would you want to try to cheer up your body with unnatural things that will leave you feeling worse in the end? We have the best natural way to get high.. exercise. The way God intended it to be for our body. Not only do I feel good, but it gives me time to think and straighten out my life. To be thankful for all the things that I have, that I never realized how special they truly our. My daughter, a wonderful husband, family, friends, etc. I'm trying not to be cheesy but I can't help it right now because I'm still so Happy! I was addicted to drugs when I was 12 and got off when I was 15. I really never realized what I was doing, or that there were other things I could be doing, better things. I admit that I always had fun, especially enjoying my friends, but at what cost? What was it worth? I did nothing good for myself except depress my mind more and made it only that much harder to get out of bed every morning. I eventually dropped out of school because I got so mentally screwed up every time I was there. Truly, I will never know if it was really being there that hurt me or if it was the drugs. That was three years of my life truly wasted, I could have been enjoying the beautiful Life God has laid before me, with a clear and happy mind.
Friday was also a good morning for me. I drove over to a drive thru to get my coffee, and the whole time I was thinking to myself how I shouldn't be doing this... I didn't have much cash on me and I really needed Gas in my car. But I wanted it so bad! Just to cheer me up and make my morning just a little more pleasant. Upon driving up to the window the Barista told me that the Woman in front of me paid for my coffee and said she hoped I had a great weekend! It totally made my day, and I was beaming for the rest of my drive. After that, I was able to go take care of all the little girls in my life! They are so wonderful and silly, made my day the best.
My life seems to be full of big problems that I never know how to deal with, but it's just all of these little tiny things God scatters into my life that make me happy and makes everything seem okay, and everything I do seems worth it.
**Aleeya just starting crawling this much, and even pulling herself up on furniture! She is now full of accidents and impossible to keep up with, but it is so much fun!!! When did my little babe get to be eight months old??? Seems like just yesterday I was texting my way through labor......
"Where O where have you been my love?
Where O where can you be?It's been so long, since the moon has gone.
& 0 what a wreck you've made me.
Are you there over the ocean?
Are you there, up in the sky?
Until the return of my love
This lullaby
My Hope is on the horizon
Every face, it's your eyes i can see
I plead, i pray through each night & day
Our Embrace is only a dream.
& as sure as days come from moments
Each hour becomes a life's time
When she'd left, i'd only begun this lullaby"
~Queens of the Stone Age
