Why is it so important to speak to someone who doesn't have the time or the motivation to actually see you??

This is what I have come to believe about cell phones. I just text and text and text, but how many of these people actually care, or would be unaffected if I stopped? 

I am having a REALLY hard time dealing with life right now. I don't want to sound all emo, it's just that I am incredibly lonely. I sit with my daughter in our apartment all day, and the only social interaction I get is the television, texts, or my mom. Aleeya and I try to go outside and enjoy the summer, but my days get incredibly long. I am not happy. Nobody actually has the time or the motivation to be with me. 

Today, I was socially engaged by my sister in law. She came over to give me something for the wedding. However, her english is very poor, and so we both stared at the TV and listened to Aleeya for 2 hours. I guess she finally decided to call it quits, and left. 

I love my daughter, soo much. And I still love Efrain. He is my best friend. However, I can't help but to miss my old life, and my old friends. I think about it daily, and it does no good for my state of mind.

"Innocence is over

Over

Ignorance is spoken
Spoken

Confidence is broken
Broken

Sustenance is stolen
Stolen

Arrogance is potent
Potent, yeah

Yeah, What I see is unreal
I've written my own part
Eat of the apple, so young
I'm crawling back to start

I repent tomorrow
Tomorrow

I suspend my sorrow
Sorrow, yeah

Yeah, What I see is unreal
I've written my own part
Eat of the apple, so young
I'm crawling back to start

A romance is fallen
Fallen

Recommend you borrow
Borrow, yeah

Yeah, What I see is unreal
I've written my own part
Eat of the apple, so young
I'm crawling back to start"

~Rotten Apple, 

Alice in Chains