So we've all been sick... and it sucks cuz Aleeya doesn't really want to sleep. She had been sleeping like 5-6 hour stretches, but since she got a nasty cold she's been waking up every couple hours. Not sleeping sucks really bad. Anyway, my boyyy has been looking for another job for the last couple of weeks.... and it's not going very well. I even had a few interviews. I didn't get it, but I don't really care. I was just like, if i do, yay, if not, oh well. I'm not to enthuised about working while taking classes and I love spending like every second with Aleeya. Anyway the job search for him isn't going very well and so he's super stressed out, which makes a kind of angry atmosphere in our apartment. I'm praying really hard for the both of us, and he prays too, but I think he's losing faith... it's really sad for me to watch and I hate it. He's usually such a strong confident guy but he's starting to go nuts stuck in our apartment all the time. I'm used to it nor do I mind (I absolutely LOVE our house, I can't help but smile every time I go home)... but idk he's just not used to it.
In OTHER more positive news... Aleeya is 2 months old on monday!!! she's is getting so big SOO fast i can't believe it. We took a trip to the doc for her cold (which was gay cuz the doctor didn't do anything anyway) and she weighed over 10 fricken pounds!! she's catching up to my fatass cat Mackey! She's growing out of all of her newborn clothes and even many of her 0-3 months! it's really exciting for me! Tomorrow we get to hang out with my sis all day so i'm super pumped for that. We are going to go check out a caterer for our wedding reception coming up in June. then we will go visit our friend Stef and her AMAZING little 2 year old and 3 month old girls. They are soo awesome and I love going to see them cuz I look up to her so much as a mom (right up there next to Kate Gosselin... my hero hahaha).
I'm also taking 2 online classes. Intro to computers (or something along the line), and a really really gay class called strategies for success. I took something really similar at ALC and it was really easy and just kind of dumb. Like: study skills, positive self talk, you can, etc. I sometimes feel insulted.. like a punch to my intelligence. The problem is that I'm super unmotivated... like first of all i have to go to my parents to use the internet... and i lose my temper with my dad really easily, and then there's always 5 thousand other things i wanna do. I just don't wanna sit down and get it done. Plus, i hate prerequisites. Maybe if it was something I was relatively interested in... but it won't be until I really get into the accounting stuff. which i'm excited for. for any of you who are debating online classes.... dont do it. you really have to be self motivated and computer savvy. I am neither. I think i'd be doing better listening to an instructor in a classroom. Technical college was better, but harder. My math class was kick ass. But this is the hard thing about having a baby. It's so hard to get into going to school. Even if I do want to go, the nights are so long that by the time morning comes around I'm way to exausted to get up and get going anywhere. I'd rather lay on the couch and catch a nap when I can.
Lastly, before I go watch Jon and Kate, If anyone has any suggestions on infant gas... gimme a comment!! Aleeya has been super fussy in the evenings.. and it's sooo hard. I love her to death but after like an hour of bouncing around and crying it's hard not to feel frustrated. It's also hard for me to hand her over to her dad. I always feel like she is MY responisibility and i shouldn't try to hand her off to anyone else. I also feel like as her mother, I can do more for her than anyone else. Anyway, leave me your comments!
ps. I'm missing my friends to death. I don't see anyone anymore, and maybe it's that people just feel like since I have a baby, They don't want to invite me out or I can't go out. and sometimes it's difficult but never out of the question.
pps. I did go out with my cousin and her girlfriends the other day. They all LOVED the baby and it was so much fun. <3
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